Anne Louwrens

I knew, but forgot that I am not here because of life happening to me, but because of my own design.

Listening to Spirit

Amazing how now, when I decide to make contact with my spirit and to stop ignoring it for such long periods, I now live the human experience instead of the human drama.

Taking the time to see and feel, to listen and sense, to intuit and relate to the nuances around me, makes me feel at peace. Why did I lose that ability for these last months?

I lost it because I became embroiled in the anger and aggression, the focus on ‘here’ instead of All That Is here.

I forgot to listen and hear God’s direction as spoken through my soul. I became deaf to my Self and instead, lent out my ears to the selfishness of others. I became caught up in the daily struggle to survive, forgetting that this is not real, and that all this is part of a cycle. I ‘accepted’ the falseness that this is all there is and became blunted in my Self. I let the depression and anger rule my heart and my thoughts, guide my actions. I became body, fragile, and mind, obsessed.

So long I’ve strived to let my Soul be my guide, my direction and my Path. And yet, the minute I felt threatened, I regressed to the point where I could no longer see the Path, let alone the Destination.

I lost sight of the reason for my being here, and who I am, in relation to this ‘here’.

My vision of love, my knowing that Love conquers all got lost in the frenetic rush to self-preservation. I knew, but forgot that I am not here because of life happening to me, but because of my own design.

So many things have come to mind lately, that will explain my need to be here, now, so many ‘becauses’ to all my ‘whys’.

I am searching for a direction, have been for a long time. I wish to grow in Spirit, so that I may help others. I chose spiritual growth, I chose this set of experiences and my Soul set the agenda, according to the fondest and deepest wish of my heart. My God created a kind and willing Universe to help me achieve whatever I will. It can do nothing else, but help me learn and experience so that my experience may prepare me for the Path I’m readying myself for. God is compassionate, God is wise, and God’s will in my life, will be personified in my will for myself.

So God helps me create, gives me the tools and lets me get on with structuring the reality I wish to live. God grants and we create. God sets in motion through our desires that which needs to be done. And now I’m doing it.

This is exactly and precisely what I asked for in the first place. I wanted to grow in Spirit. I can’t grow without the experience of it. I can’t evolve, if I can’t define what it is I desire, in contrast to what it is I don’t. I cannot know perfect Love if I don’t experience its opposite. I can’t know perfect forgiveness, if there is nothing to forgive.  I can’t know unconditional acceptance, if I don’t live its total absence in this situation. I can’t know the freedom of vulnerability, unless I too know the pain of being made to fear, and the total freedom of that vulnerability within my relationship with life.

Therefore, I should not condemn this period of now, but bless it for what it’s showing me about myself. I should not judge the ones around me who I perceive as negative, because this negativity will lead me to a better understanding of the positive, the good, the love, the joy, the peace, the tranquillity, and the total freedom from physical constraints. This is just one period, one second, of my time on this Path I chose to Becoming.

I bless it.

And thank it.

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Psychic Tutoring

I train clients on how to develop their psychic ability as I believe we were all born with the ability to know. We will be covering the following:

  • Seeing Auras
  • Distance Viewing
  • Reading People
  • Making Sense of Dreams
  • Psychic Self-Defense

I require a minumum of 5 people per training group with a maximum of 10. The course runs over 12 Saturdays with self practice on your part to succeed. The cost per group per session is R1000, so get your friends to participate to reduce your contribution fee.